Monday, April 30, 2007

A Prayer

=Future Spouse=

Father I seek first Your Kingdom and Your righteousness, and all things shall be mine as well. I know that You love me and that I can trust Your word: For in HIm the whole fullness of Deity continues to dwell in bodily form - giving complete expression of the divine nature. And I am in Him, made full and have come to the fullness of life - in Christ I too am filled with the Godhead: Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, and reach full spiritual stature, And Christ is the head of all rule and authority - of every angelic principality and power. Because of Jesus, I am complete; He is my Lord.

I come before You, Father, desiring a Christian mate. I petition that Your will be done in my life, and I enter into that blessed rest ny adhering to, trusting in, and relying on You.

Father You desire that I live a life free from care, that I should be content and satisfied in every situation that I am in, and that I should not be anxious or worried about anything. You have said that if I am willing to obedient to Your Word, You will give me the desires of my heart. It is my desire that someday I will be married to the person You have chosen for me.

I pray for him. Father, especially help him to grow in love, Your kind of love. A friend loves at all times, and I desire that my spouse be a person who shares the same love that I have for You, someone who will be one in spirit and purpose woth me.

I ask You to send mature men and women into our lives to give us good, godly counsel and to teach us how we should love each other and care for our family. Teach us both what You expect husbands and wives to do and how we ought to behave towards each other. Reveal to our hearts Your Word concerning the marriage relationship and correct any wrong thinking in our lives. Grant us knowledge through godly people, books, tapes, and preaching that will give us understanding concerning relationship, so that we can avoid damaging the relationship You desire for us.

Father, I trust You to lead me and judge me by Your Holy Spirit so that when your perfect time is right, I will have the wisdom, discretion, and discernment to know that my choice and Yours are the same for my life-mate. I am secure with the mind and the spirit that You have given me to make this decision.

I pray that the eyes of my future spouse's understanding will be opened so that he will have complete knowledge of Your will in all spiritual wisdom and understanding. I pary that he will live a life that is worthy of You, Lord, and pleasing to You inevery way. Thank you that he will always be involved in doing good deeds, and have a strong, growing relationship with You. I pray that our commitment to each other will continually grow as we drew closer to You.
In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.

<Prayers That Avail Much>

Oh Lord Jesus, open my eyes so that I can see, grant me the spirit of wisdom, to meet the one and only man who will lead me in my life espeacially in my church life. Blessed him with the spirit that he and I can live in one spirit which is in You. Oh Lord Jesus, I believe You know the best for me and You will surely give me the best. Thank you Lord for Your mighty love, so when the perfect time has come I will know that he is the one You had choose for me. Amen

Sunday, April 08, 2007

I’ve been checking back the collection I kept, one from the box, one inside the yomigaki text book, and another one somewhere in my deck of paper, so there is all together 3 pieces of them. And I remember that there is still one.
Out of three 2 is from Langkawi, one from Cameron Hignland. I can get to know a lot of you from these tiny little gifts; I really treasure a lot every time I take it out and read it again. I always feel very fortunate that we still can be friend even though we’ve been apart for years and without any specific reason. But recently plenty of your extremely wired reaction toward me makes me tremendously heartache. I try to finds you excuse to comfort myself and even find you excuse to convince my sis that you are not that cruel but just…well some super lame excuses which I felt so stupid to tell.
I can’t explain about the Alex’s birthday incident, which you really shock me as if I am being too busy body in this matter. Just if I did something wrong. I don’t know why. Am I doing too much? But I no longer feeling sad, I am just a little disappointed. I know you are clear that who is doing wrong and who is being rude here. Is it that hard to apology? At least you let me know politely. Sometimes I think I should be thankful that you make me and Alex friend. He is nice guy I think, at least I like the way we are. At least he knows that you did something hurts me and sounds you.
I can’t explain the Channel 6 incident, which your immediate turning back indeed give me an ice point cold shoulder. What do you mean by “oh, is you.” with your red T, white shorts, Dunhill and K700 on each hand? I tell you I remember every little thing. Can you stop making something unexplainable and later on give me very unreasonable excuses. I can always forget and forgive but aL you have gained yourself very high can’t be trusted point.
I have been numb, don’t forget I am an expert in being hurt by heartless guy which always reckless about my feeling. I am very strong now. Your reaction to me wouldn’t be bothering me long like it used to be, because I know the best way to be happy.
May be you will not be reading this, but it doesn’t matter. cause its still the same whether you will or will not. You won’t give a damn…